In Shock!!

WOW!

What a whirlwind this past week has been!!!!!!!

I’m still feeling a little crazy in my head…. Ok well not as crazy and cloudy as the past week since I am now eating more food too much food…

I must say as much as I was dreading/scared/nervous going into this big day I am sure glad it’s over I DID IT!!!!!!!

This past week made me really question WHY on earth am I doing this? I want people to learn how to be healthy, feel great, have energy, take care of themselves and LOVE who THEY are not what society thinks they should be… I was going to tell you this was the exact opposite but now that I have seen it first hand, its not.

 I have learned to appreciate my body and respect myself more than I ever have. HAHA. Who would’ve thought walking around in a bikini, huge heels and all done up could do that to me?????

Lets start from the beginning of the week. As you know if you’ve been keeping tabs on me, last week I didn’t get great results from some issues I was having with my eating disorder. (remember my running, binging and purging?? That doesn’t get results…. I will bang this in your head until you believe me!!!!!!) It turns out that all that craziness was VERY hormonal and I had a little friend who decided to come say hi to me 5 days before my show…. I was not a happy camper!!!

 Considering that I  decided to make bad decisions and not stay on my diet as well as i could i was in crunch time and had to REALLY cut out a lot of carbs to look like i belonged on stage. (which was my goal). It doesn't have to  SHOUDL NOT be done like this... lesson learned. 

I had headaches a lot, my energy was low, I couldn’t sleep well. I didn’t feel as if I was taking care of myself mentally or physically and I did NOT love myself very much.  EVERYDAY I would pick at my body and look in the mirror every 5 min to see if anything changed. It was crazy! I would beat myself up over the fact that I don’t have shredded abs or more definition in my back and shoulders. I was short tempered with my family and friends... not a fun week but I could have avoided it had I not dipped into old habits the week prior.

This is interesting.....

 I took pictures of my bloated stomach for 6 days in a row from Sunday til Thursday.... it was amusing how I could tell what I was eating was affecting me. at the top was the day my period (& after i had my binge freak outs) then towards the bottom was 2 days before my show, right when i started cutting water. Such a huge difference really cleaning up the diet can do! 

Leans meats, avocados and veggies worked wonders in a week! 

I made sure i packed all my meals up to the day of the competition.... then i placed all my meals in bags and labeled the day it was for.... haha classy right?? 

Hey it worked!!!! My BEST results have come when i packed my meals and ONLY ate what I packed....perfect! 

Not only was my diet changed I also had to step up my cardio a bit.... so lots of slow cardio so I did not burn any more muscle bit could lose a little more fat. 

I hated it. 

Now that we see what my week prior to the show consisted of..... lots of lean meats, asparagus, and some avocados here and there.... oh and stupid slow cardio.....

 I have been getting LOTS of questions about the day before and day of the show..... So lets go ahead dig into it!!! (grab some coffee or tea and some cocoa almonds to snack on...yummy!)

Thursday: 

Wake up to teach my AMAZING boot camp class... I was pretty low on energy but thank goodness they understood! 

I started cutting back on water (instead of 2 gallons I drank a 1/2 of one). I also took some dandelion root and this stuff called xpel. These are diuretics to help lose WATER weight... nothing else. Yes it made me feel better taking them because of my period and bloat BUT it's not something one should take just because. If you chose to take any kind of supplement DO YOUR RESEARCH first PLEASE!!!!!! This stuff can be scary. 

Picked up my cousin Cassidy (she kept me sane!). She went with me for my polygraph test..... that was sure weird....(Do I look like I'm on steroids??)  She then helped me go to the store to get nails to clip on.... hahahaha I'm classy I know. Also I needed to get little things like Vaseline for my teeth... (WHAT?) Apparently it keeps your teeth from sticking when you smile. We picked up some eyelashes.... haha I got these HUGE ones thinking they would look better on stage and needed to be dramatic... yeah not so much..... 

Don't worry my girlfriend saved me from these ....this picture cracks me up!

I picked up my "sister" (pretty much) from the airport and we hung out the rest of the day. Went to the park with my little man and on a LONG walk (so I didn't eat anything). 

Aren't they so cute??!

Friday:

I wake up Friday and had FULL intentions of getting my body fat checked and my final measurements but the morning was a little crazy. Ok not really.  I was being lazy and tired. Then when I mustered up the energy to shower I had to shave my ENTIRE body before my tan..... so odd. After tanning i was going to go but I was exhausted, light headed, and looked REALLY scary (see below).....Needless to say I was bummed I didn't get my final measurements. 

I got my tan from a beautiful woman named Tina, from Simply Gorgeous (AWESOME gal!!!!!). Whew.... modesty was GONE this weekend! Here I am BUTT naked with a gal spraying me down and i am trying so hard to NOT giggle, it was cold and tickled! 

don't you love this??

One of my BFF's (miss Aundrea) came with me (she took my pic!) so it was a little more fun... In the drying room, here I am naked, prancing around practicing my posing while my tan is drying... Highly entertaining! No worries.... it was just us two! (Thank goodness for girlfriends like her to keep me entertained!) 

During the process I get a call from edible arrangements about a delivery at my door, but they left it at my neighbors since i was gone. EEEEEK. It was really funny because Aundrea was actually ordering me one at the SAME time they called me!! (she cancelled hers & decided to give me something a little bit more risky AFTER my judging was over.)

We get back to my house and little Aundrea goes over to see if my neighbor was home so she could take the fruit with her because I only have ONE day left and those little things can affect my progress if I give in.. and we all know my struggles with my eating disorder.

My neighbor was not home, until after Aundrea left.... ahhhhhh. So she came over and gave it to me after looking at me like i was crazy from my skin color, baggy clothe and lack of energy. 

I tried SO hard to not open it..... but no one was around me..... so I did! it was beautiful! So sweet of my sister in law! I tried so hard to just put it away... but I may have had one or two bites pieces. Hey now... that's it. I could've eaten the whole box... I wanted to SO BAD! I then had to leave or I would have.

yummy!!!!!!

I go check in for the show then go hang out with Shannon, her parents and my little man at their hotel. They fed me steak! YUMMY! So much better than the cold mahi mahi I was eating for days. I also ate a few bites of Wyatt's mashed potatoes..... eeeek. So good!

I then go back for another tan (I have sensitive skin and am a Blondie so i needed to be darker). Did I tell you I was unable to wear deodorant these days? (STINKY!!!!!)

Saturday.... SHOW DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't sleep... like at all. From getting up to pee every 10 minutes to my nerves... I was up at 3am.

I seriously kept walking through my T-walk in my head over and over. I was too tired to try to pose in heels that early! So then at 5am I pack my bags with my suit, heels and sweat pants, grab my coffee, red wine... (yes i brought some wine), rice cakes, honey, PB, and dixie cups... (to pee in.... yep to pee in lol) then head out to get my hair and make up done at 6am with Dani at Boss Studios.

Leave from there at 7am. Arrive for our meeting at the Orpheum at 730am.

I was feeling so odd at this point. Due to lack of water, food, tan, makeup, hair, OHMYGOODNESS! I was feeling a little insane. This text cracks me up.....

Clearly i wasn't feeling like myself.....

After the meeting we go back stage to get ready. I STILL had not put on my nails AND needed to change my lashes. Aundrea came to my rescue AGAIN! 

The locker rooms were FULL of guys and girls that smelled horrible from all that tanning, protein farts, and hair spray. Everyone was eating rice cakes and honey or candy (so much candy backstage), and was practicing their walks and posing in the mirrors. Modesty was definitely NOT in the category here. No one really cared, after all it was all about you here.... 

I met some pretty incredible people with AMAZING fitness journeys that got them up on that stage. 

She's gorg!

This gal Caitlin lost over 30lbs to step on stage... she looks AMAZING!

I really went into this just wanting to LOOK like i belonged. I was not doing this to win because honestly i didn't think i would even place. I thought it would be cool if i did but I always under estimate myself. This is due to my self image and eating disorder I am sure. Not to mention I've never had anyone (that wasn't saying it for alternative reasons) tell me I was worth it growing up and that i was beautiful (until my hubby of course!!!)

This quote and bible verse was playing over and over in my head the whole day to give me confidence when I felt like I had none:

 "For the LORD will be your confidence,

And will keep your foot from being caught."

Proverbs 3:26 

I was entirely out of my comfort zone. Thank goodness I'm pretty adaptable! 

We go on stage and have to pose for a front view and a back view. The judges then place us in their judging criteria. I was entered into 2 shows so i had to get up their two times next to a different set of girls. It was hard because you have to pop you butt WAY out but cannot look "unrefined."

Then you have to SMILE and NOT move. One time the judges asked to to stick out my butt more and I remember thinking.... "DUDE I can't get it out any farther!!!!" I guess I needed to point my toe more... oh heck. I was all confused! Heres a couple shots from front and back.... I'm in middle with blue suit on. 

2nd from right

3rd from left

After ALL that we get a little break so we go to Blue Sushi where i ate ONE cali roll... with NO sodium and a glass of red wine... I NEEDED more wine!!!! 

NIGHT SHOW!!!

Little did i know that ALL the pre judging would be done at the first show during our posing next  to the other girls or I would've REALLY practiced these more than my walk!!!!  I was kind of upset I was so worried about my T-Walk. I started to get nervous and then was given a little "shot" of confidence from some awesome friends!!

TIme for my T-walk...... hahahahaha OH BOY! I was a little faster than I wanted and a bit akward with the sassy kicks.... but hey... I DID IT WITHOUT FALLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heres the video...... it's ok... you can laugh... I still am laughing it.

When it came time for the call outs for the USA Pro-Qualifier I was standing backstage and thinking after seeing all these beautiful ladies... it's ok if i do not place, I got up on stage, went out of my comfort zone and did it. It's over and I know I overcame SO much in the process. I was feeling proud that i even had the courage to do this & put myself on the line.

The judges start calling out the numbers (in no particular order) and there were 4 girls out there then the judge said and number 77, Lallenia Birge. 

I just stood there. 

No way! 

I remember I shook my head like that's not right. One of the girls nudged me to the stage. I was seriously shocked. Then when he called out the places... I wasn't even 5th! I was 4th!!! CRAZY. 

Then we had to wait around for the Bluffs Classic awards. There were more girls in this show so I for sure thought I wasn't going to place AGAIN. So.... I ate TWO GiGi's Cupcakes!!!!!! (SOOOOOOOO DELISH!!!!!) 

Yes! Thats Aundrea & I  eating those cupcakes!
haha and I have my hubbys Flannel on cute right? =)

Anyways SO we go back to waiting for the Bluff's Awards while all this food is settling in my tummy....Then i hear my name AGAIN!! EEEKK.... suck it in Lallenia! 

I was placed 3rd!!!!!!!!!! What??? I couldn't BELIEVE IT! I even got a trophy!!!!!

This was given to me to eat AFTER  the show... how cute huh???

Besides:
- Winning the trophy and medal,
- Being able to eat food again,
-Learning more about myself then I ever thought possible,
- Testing my discipline,
- Going out of my comfort zone entirely
- Learning that I need to find a balance in my life...

The BEST thing from this WHOLE experience to me.....was seeing the look in my husbands eyes telling me how proud he was of me. That overwhelming look of love, pride and those words meant more to me than anything in the world. He was SO proud of me and excited for me I couldn't believe it.

He placed this on our mantle next to his little football game trophy!

Someone REALLY loves me even if it was a crazy, inconvenient, and extra expense on us in many ways. He stood by me and was so proud of me.... I mean he has had this look when we had our little boy, and when we got married but to see how honest and proud he was of me for something that I accomplished was so amazing to me. SO if you're a parent, wife, friend, sister, brother, husband don't underestimate the words I'm proud of you, when you truly mean it and say it with sincerity. I have tears in my eyes just thinking writing about it.

I am so happy I did this and so very grateful to all of you who helped me through and believed in me this whole time. I didn't expect the outcome to be as rewarding and insiring as it has been. Nor did I realize how many people i've inspired and helped along my journey. I have gotten so much positive feedback from everything that I am still blown away!

Many people are asking if this means i will do another one..... I might. I guess we will see. If I do i will have to get my midsection leaner for sure to place higher. But I need to simplify my life right now and get myself and my family back in order before I make any definite decisions.

 I have so much more i want to tell you about these past couple days AFTER the show but will save that for my next blog. Again THANK YOU to my supporters and people who have me in their best interest and prayers!

Keep yourself Healthy, Fit, and Fabulous!!

*Lallenia*

I'm sorry......

Well.....
I want to apologize if my last post may have came across negative
I suppose this IS a blog so I do not need to apologize for the way I was feeling.
BUT The week didn't go very well with that attitude if you were wondering....

I WILL say i am sorry for not having the results i should have had this week.
(start here if you're confused what I'm up too please)

I actually went up a small (.05) % of body fat, barely lost any weight. (maybe a half pound), and lost muscle.

This is because I completely went off the rails this week, had some un anticipated stress, and decided to do a little bit of running sprinting......

My husband is preparing to take a HUGE plumbing test on Nov. 6th so has had classes all last week and will have some this week as well. (horrible timing!!) not to mention I was feeling REALLY down on myself this past week & couldn't sleep well (my time of the month is due any day so hormones??).

He handles this so well...=) I'm a lucky gal!!

Needless to say I was taken out of my routine of having my husband come take over for me at home with Wyatt. He would take care of him so I was not tempted to eat any "extra" food and get to sleep at a normal time or do cardio if I needed to. He wasn't able to do that this week. =( 

If you've been following me or know much about me you know I am always trying to get people to be healthier and always keeping up with ways to go about this. I've tried  I deal with staying healthy as well which is how I stumbled into this profession.

I experimented with a thing called bulimia when i was 13 years old and it has been a struggle for me to overcome since. It's embarrassing to say the least and also a topic that many people stray away from or try to hide. When I REALLY opened up about it in this blog I had an amazing response from people sharing their stories and struggles. It made me realize what a need there is for me  people to be honest, open and sincere. It also has opened my eyes to the fact that I have NOT been that open about it because I have been embarrassed and do not want anyone to think less of me (or think it works!) if i share my current struggles so I did not go into any details, there was my first mistake.


BTW.... throwing up food does NOT help to lose body fat or even lose fat and running does NOT help with burning fat either... just muscle. (hence the results this week.... blah)


WAIT WAIT WAIT? What on earth am I talking writing about!? I was TWO WEEKS (last week) from a BIKINI COMPETITION! Why on earth would i do those things when I KNOW the outcome is not what I desire?????


This past week was one of my worst weeks I've had in a LONG time with my struggle. 2 weeks before the show? How does that happen Lallenia????

I will tell you that there are SEVERAL aspects that go into play with this kind of disordered eating (obviously stress is one for me). I would LOVE to go into details about how, what, why, where, and when but I sure don't have that kind of time to talk write about all of that right now (one day I will!) & who even knows if you'd want to read it.



I could blame it on my son not wanting to eat the rest of his apple slices so I did and it triggered an episode.... or the fact my husband left the bread and PB on the counter, or the guy at scooters who bought Wyatt & I a cookie.... BUT lets be real.... it was my CHOICE, no one else can make me eat the right way(and not give into temptations) to achieve my goals or to go workout. I have to do it. People can tell me WHAT to do... its up to ME to do it or not.

I was SO close to just wanting to quit last week. I felt as if this is stupid. It's a bad time in my life. I can't do it. I'm too ugly. I don't look the part enough. My body is gross. blah blah blah. Negative self talk was all over in my head. I'm sure we've all been there and it's AMAZING to me how many times we BELIEVE that talk until it sabotages us.

 The thing i found this week that helped me tremendously that I wish I would have done the whole time (hint hint if you're one that struggles with any kind of disorder or stress).... was embrace and use my support system. I was so upset and mad at myself Friday that I finally just let it all out to one of my best friends (famous Aundrea Annin) and i felt SO much better and back on track. Though she has never dealt with this herself she knows about my past and knows this is a struggle for me, so she listened and encouraged me. Plus it just helps when you do not feel so alone in your struggles.

It REALLY helped talking to her and her coming with me to get my stage suit (I WAS NERVOUS!!!) but even after getting my suit and being told I looked good in it I was still REALLY self conscious! (stupid self image issues and negative talk!!!!)

Then there is my other best friend (WIFEY!) who is ALWAYS one of my biggest fans and supporters who has encouraged me and kept me on track. Shannon may not realize this but her coming to be here with me has also kept me more focused following through with this whole thing. She has known since i was 16 I've wanted to do something like this. This girl makes me laugh everyday and we have a game plan coming into Saturday.....

I tried the heels on the treadmill.... didn't work too well... j/k! 

Honestly if it were not for my support system (friends, family, clients, readers) I'm not sure I'd be able to finish this endeavour. I received this card this week and WOW what amazing timing! (thanks SO much Anna Marie!!!!) You have no idea how special these little things (like a hand written card, MAILED) can mean!!!!

In Conclusion: I am really sorry that I did not get the best results this week and that I have not been as open as i should have been this whole time. Had I been more open I may have NOT had so many struggles. Please learn from my mistakes if you are struggling with something. Reach out to the people that support you, love you and accept you for who you are. Then come up with a game plan to reach your (attainable) goals. If you have a bad day/week/month/year get it out in the open and keep moving forward. That's my plan.

Goals for this week:

Well my husband used our child locks on a cupboard and placed EVERYTHING that might tempt me.... even salt and honey lol in there and takes the key to work now.

see top right^^^

When I start getting anxious I am going to start journaling my feelings and remove myself away from food. 

I do have to do a bit of an extreme diet (i DO NOT recommend others to do) this last week and cardio.... yuck. Because I did not get the results desired. Please do not follow this & expect the same outcome as me if you do. This is only temporary for me to reach my best by Saturday from where I am now. 

My Diet is:

1.) 2 egg 3 whites, 1 cup spinach or asparagus

2.) 4oz Mahi Mahi 1 cup asparagus 

3.) 4oz  Ground beef/bison, 1/2 avocado, green bell pepper

4.) 4oz Cod, 1 cup broccoli or asparagus

5.) 4oz salmon, 1 cup asparagus or spinach or bell pepper 

6.) if still hungry 2 eggs 3 whites before bed. 

Cardio will be WALKING at 2.5-3.0mph 1 hour in the morning and one at night. Training is boot camp style and lots of Body weight. 

The crazy thing?? I started it pretty much Friday and I measured my tummy Friday morning to see how much bloat I put into my "pooch." it was at a 30.5. Sunday morning it went down to a 29.5. My waist went from 27 to 26 again IN 2 days my bloat went away. YAY! Now i have 6 more days to stay on track and look better. 

I wasn't going to post pictures this week and just say wait and see. BUT I want you to see the difference between today and then a week of following a REALLY strict  diet plan, drinking a TON of water, and doing my WALKING cardio. Not to mention being ALL dolled up & tanned!!! ;-)

Compared to last weeks  though not as drastic as it could have been... I can still see a bit of a difference! 

Especially in my back... can you believe my back pinch STILL hasn't budged since i started!? The only true way to measure progress is by pictures and the way you feel. Not by body fat pinches, or the scale. And even sometimes pictures can be annoying because it's about the way you pose each time and move your body. 

Here's LAST weeks to compare...

(My poses looked a little better from LAST week because we had to rush this morning taking the pictures.)

All righty folks that's all I got this week! I am re motivated and learning more about myself each day. Which is EXACTLY what I wanted out of all this. I know I'm not perfect and have struggles to overcome but I also know that no matter what I will NEVER give up on trying to get healthier, fitter and more fabulous every day. Even if that means failing sometimes or going backwards.... I always learn something about myself each time I do.

CHEERS to lean meats, leafy veggies, water, and cardio this week....... Next week will be the results if I fell on my face or not.... (dun dun dun.....)

Again THANKS to EVERYONE who is helping me through this!!! I love you ALL!!!!
XoXo

Keep yourself Healthy, Fit, and Fabulous!!

*Lallenia*

PS This is a GREAT post about Anna and Mia issues....weather you struggle with it or know someone who does.

http://www.soheeleefitness.com/uncategorized/a-call-to-arms-against-ana-and-mia/#more-1469

Lets Be Honest...

I am going to be completely honest here….. this is NOT fun for me right now….

I honestly do not know how people are able to do this multiple times in a year. I get the challenge of it and the discipline you need to own up to that can be rewarding. And maybe if I was not a wife and mother it would be different.

(start here if new to this little escapade...)

 I feel selfish.

 I feel like I am taking from my husband, my son, my family, my friends, my clients and my life. I know you need to take care of yourself but SERIOUSLY that doesn’t mean spending hours at the gym and ONLY cooking for yourself because your family does not want to eat dry fish and asparagus or chicken and broccoli for every meal. Then if you do TRY to cook for your family you end up ruining your diet… or a least I do! (Butternut squash never tasted so good!)
Or I have a breakdown and eat more than I should of THEIR groceries from Costco. I then beat myself up over it... No Worries. I am on a mission to find the baby lock locks we have for our cupboards in storage and making Brad take the key with him to work for the next two weeks! (Pathetic?? Um I think not)

Oh hey… yup this is the positive, encouraging Lallenia today right? Ha. Ha. Blame it on the lack of carbs FOOD.  Not that I am not eating…. I just feel hungry all day and I have been getting headaches lately. I suppose it is my body adjusting but it’s not fun.

My workouts have also been really pathetic. I do not have as much energy. Everyone is different but I like to lift heavy (for me), jump high, sprint fast, challenge myself. Not only do a set of 15 and feel exhausted. I don’t like doing a few sprints then get dizzy. I’m not a fan of NOT looking forward to working out. Right now I don’t want to workout.

 I don’t want to get up and go to the gym for fasting steady cardio then go home starving only to be able to eat eggs and 2oz of a sweet potato…. REALLY? Shoot I tried to eat 2 oz. this morning and somehow the whole 5oz ended up in my mouth…. Whoops .I guess that’s why I need to portion it out when I am not ravishing.

I miss my balance. I never thought I really had balance before. Any maybe I didn’t very well which is why I struggle with an eating disorder. So even though this really sucks it IS teaching me the value of having a BALANCE in not only dietary habits but also life in general. Its not fun obsessing over the little things and missing out on the things life is about (like running outside in beautiful weather appreciating this fall season).

Boy, do I miss running right now. Every time I see someone outside running I want to hit him or her with my car because I’m jealous. Even though I AM seeing greater results without running as far as muscle tone and strength... I miss it so much. Although, I am scared to run again because I am sure it will feel like I’m starting all over. I know I want to run at least 3-6 miles a week after this competition. Which isn’t bad compared to when I used to run 20 Plus miles a week because I thought that would get me in better shape, it definitely does NOT work that way. Running long distance i have learned only leads to having a lot of endurance (not a bad thing) and eats away at the muscle i did have (very bad if you want to be a fat burning machine).  Now I just CRAVE it for my sanity and sweat. 

It would be SO easy to quit right now. Because it IS hard. And I don't want to do this all the time. I want to go back to what was fun to me and what I enjoy...

I am sure you’re probably thinking OK Lallenia we GET IT you’re ANNOYED!! Now shut up and give us your results this week then go to bed so you’re not biting any ones head off (literally).

This week Stats:

Weight 134.4lbs (down about 2lbs from last week)

BF%: 19.07 %..... WTFlip? I wasn’t happy about only being down a quarter percent.

LBM: 108.6… urgh..... I LOST some muscle…. Not cool but to be expected

Waist is now a 26.75in (27.25in. 4 weeks ago) and my belly "love handle" bulge (measured right below my belly button) went from 34inches (6 weeks ago) to 30inches so far! Crazy (but good!!)!

My body fat didn’t go down much like I thought it would. This is because my back fat pinch isn’t changing!!!! It’s SO annoying that this is where I store my fat…. Just weird. My theory is because I hunched over a lot growing up (you JUST sat up straight right??) then have had shoulder surgery on BOTH shoulders which prevented me from using my muscles in my back for a long time. No worries, I am on a mission this week to make it go down a little bit! I will do the row machine and vertical rows like crazy.... plus my diet will be tightening up even more... If there's still no change then I don't know what to tell you.

My nutritionist told me that when you’re trying to get to a place your body has never been for the first time it’s going to be more challenging then if you’ve been there before. This makes sense. So when someone is trying to lose weight or fat the first time it’s a struggle to get it off.  Then when they do, if they steer off track it’s a lot easier for their body to gain weight again if they slip back to old habits. It’s doesn’t take as long to get there again when you’ve been there in the past. If I decided to do another show in the future it wouldn't take as long or be as hard for me to get my body fat down.

Below are the pictures i took this morning. Yes, right out of the shower, no make up on or hair done like my 4 week progress picture. I see more muscle tone this week and can tell my sides have gone down and my tummy a little bit... especially my "love handles". my arms look weird but the pinch went down a lot this week so it could be water or because they aren't "pumped up." I'll remember to do push ups before my next set of pictures =)

I know I still have a lot to do in 2 weeks!!!! 

BUT I will have to say... I think I looked better in my 4 weeks (minus my butt... that looks better this week) ! I look fuller! ...maybe its just the make up and hair done... i dunno. 

On a positive note I REALLY do LOVE everything I have been learning about the way peoples my body works. There is only SO much you can learn from the books. It’s truly the experience that makes it REAL and helps a person to REALLY  understand what is going on. I see why so many trainers do these shows &  have such successful clients. I see how people who have lost weight and kept it off are great motivators and trainers for those going through the process. It is kind of like taking marriage advice from a single person…. REALLY? Um no thank you. I'll take the couple happily married for 35 years. Experience. 

Speaking of married life…. My poor husband…. He must REALLY love me…. I know he has a lot going on in his life right now with starting his own business (www.bigbirgedrain.com) but he's trying so hard to keep me motivated and on track even when I tell him I don’t like him, that he is annoying or to not touch me (he hates this one the worst).  I really am truly blessed to have him as my other half. It also helps that I downloaded the Focus on the Family Marriage Podcast to keep me sane, entertained, and loving towards my family the best I can right now.

The take away today..... If you're in the Omaha area and need a plumber... CALL BIG BIRGE!
lol you think I'm kidding? Not at all, really please do! He's the best ;-)

These next two weeks I will be eating  am supposed to be eating:

Breakfast: 3 eggs, 2-3 oz sweet potatoes
Snack: Mahi Mahi and broccoli
Lunch: Mahi Mahi, broccoli & 12 almonds
Snack: Cod and broccoli
Dinner: 4-6 oz steak or salmon and 10 asparagus
Snack: 3 eggs

I hate LOVE my life. =) Wish me luck and a positive attitude for this week please!

 I just got these Paleo cook books I will only be able to dream about now.

Is it weird that I am craving a HUGE bowl of fruit? I don't really want anything but a HUGE edible arrangement or fruit tray right now. (even over carrot cake!!! Now That's CRAZY!)

Enough blabbing.....

Good Night World.

Keep yourself Healthy, Fit, and Fabulous!!

*Lallenia*