progress NOT perfection...

My update for this week......

I went to get my new measurements Friday AND my body fat dropped 1.45%!!! So I am at 20.77%!!! Which means I am right on track with where I need to be!! 

Stats:

Weight: 138lbs

BF%: 20.77%

Lean Body Mass: 109.33lbs

Fat Mass: 28.67lbs

So this means I lost about 2.5lbs of fat in ONE week and kept my lean muscle. Good stuff! 

I know by planning and prepping all my meals this week it payed off big time! SO that shall be my goal for the next 5 weeks!!

I will say i did slip a couple times this week by eating a couple bunch of yogurt covered almonds and an extra tablespoon of PB.... but the positive note is that I did not freak out or get mad at myself i simply got right back on track with my next meal.

I find that myfitnesspal app is awesome!! I REALLY LOVE IT! But sometimes i think I obsess with it and the reason why I will binge or overeat is because when I enter in the couple more (yogurt covered) almonds than I'm "supposed" to eat my brain tells me I'm a failure then I will spiral into an episode. 

I realized this when talking to my husband today. I know writing down food is one of the best ways to reach your fitness & health goals and to make you aware of your choices. i highly recommend people do this. For me, however, now that I know what to eat and how much to eat, if i mess up I look at myself as a failure or think i might as well binge.

Confused?? Me too! Heck, i suppose if this were easy to understand and there was ONE right way to log food and one diet plan that worked for everyones goals then we'd all be sporting six packs and round muscle butts. Dietitians and personal trainers would be obsolete. 

There is not. This is all a learning process no matter who you are or what your goals are, you are going to keep striving to get better and find a solution that works for YOU... not me, not your best friend, for YOU.  

This week I am going to try to not log my food (I'm scared!!!) and just eat off the diet plan and out of my cooler. I am curious to see how i will react to not having the control of logging the food and seeing my protein, fats and carbs right in front of me... My goal is to see if I do not obsess so much and just follow the plan then maybe I will not be tempted to binge or eat off the plan because I have some "carbs left over."

I am VERY excited about the results this past week and know i am on track even with the little slips but I am always looking for ways to get better... plus lets be honest... I do NOT want to be using food logs my whole life. For this next week I will be not logging my food, if I feel like i need to i will write it down on a piece of paper. 

I sit here debating if I should post my pictures or not this week....

WHY!? (Did i read your mind?)

 I mean after all I had awesome results according to my stats.

well...........

The pictures didn't turn out as awesome as i thought they would....

They were blurry and 2 of them looked better at the 9 week mark then the 5 week!!!! 

My only explanation for this is because i still do not know how to pose the right way to "flatter" my body. (or I ate my oatmeal FIRST then took the picture... does that really make that big of a difference?)

Yes. You know I'm going to post these...  shoot (pun intended) I've already opened up this much to you all about my struggles and life. Besides, it will show the process without a tan, pump up, airbrush, and everything else that happens to those pictures in magazines and from the stage... i also still have about 3-4% more body fat to lose.... progress lallenia NOT perfection...... 

Really though... What the heck? my 9 week out looks better than my 5 week...

I see you laughing at my pose... stop it! 

I know.... I know.... the suit I wear on stage better make me look well endowed.... because this one does not....... (anyone have $5,000 I can borrow???)

STOP LAUGHING AT ME!! I tried to look sexy and all i got was my tummy poking out and a funny look on my face. (*sigh*)

ok ok now this I can tell my waist got smaller and my back is looking leaner... which is what we want since that is where i carry my body fat. 

 I've always wanted really defined dimples on my lower back... I'm excited to see them coming in!! ... Yes I know you're still laughing because my attempt to pose in these pictures... I mean how funny does my hand look hanging down like that?

Well there you have it. 5 weeks to go. This is going really fast now and even if those pictures didn't flatter me I know I'm still on track. I need to get to sleep so  I can get up for 3:45am cardio.... blah....

I've learned to LOVE audio books now! Especially John Maxwell books!!! He's awesome! 

This book rocks!!! VERY motivating! I'm still learning how to apply this all to my life but i figure all this early morning cardio this stuff will be engrained in my head these next five weeks! 

Yes that says 4:18am and I already was listening to it for 32 min....... dedication!!!

I challenge you to read (or listen to) a book that will inspire you this week in an area you struggle with... weather it is with your relationships (The 5 Love Languages  by Gary Chapman is AMAZING), Health (It Starts With Food by Melissa & Dallas Hartwig will get you on track), or Business (Anything John Maxwell is inspiring). All three of these books and authors have changed my outlook on how i view my life in a VERY positive way. I've always been a HUGE believer in you are who and what you surround yourself with (everything from food to books to people).... makes you think doesn't it?

Looking forward to next weeks results!!!!!!!! (yes I will practice my posing so you all can stop laughing at me) 

Keep yourself Healthy, Fit, and Fabulous!!

*Lallenia*